The explanations are all over the thread and they form a twisty but very reasonable progression of decisions. It's not as simple as "I decided to be crazy and here's why"
But let me summarize, off the top of my head, a few reasons for behavior that comes off weird:
- From the top I decided to play this game more casually, thinking less about each post
- This is partly a function of my changing schedule. During MII I had a lot of time on my hands in which I could analyze, re-read, and post Walls o' text. During this game I have a computer-oriented 9-6 day job which lets me pop in and post things without feeling too guilty, but I would feel like a bad employee if I sat here at work re-reading the 70-page thread. So a lot of short, less-thought-out posts.
- This is also partly an attempt to imitate O's more impish playing style, which sort of looked fun.
- I guess the third thing, that I couldn't talk about before, is that while MIII was going, I had to play very carefully in there as SK and think carefully about every post. So I was drawn even more to just be fast and lose in here.
- That decision led me to do some stupid things, like the premature VT claim (which didn't strike me as a mistake at the time, but in retrospect I see why it's bad)
- Once I had done some stupid things and people were all after me, and pops told me my wagon was informative, I thought maybe the best thing was to let myself be lynched and hope that was more helpful to the town than me sticking around. The town didn't go for it.
- Despite my willingness to be a sacrificial lamb, what I find to be the most frustrating is when I feel like absolutely no one is listening to me or engaging my questions. It's also kind of frustrating the number of no-win situations Robz has painted me into. These things pushed me over the edge into crazy town yesterday (RL). I apologize for that, but man it happens sometimes. I get way too invested in these games.
- In the meantime I have oscillated between a "Fuck it I've already screwed up might as well just say whatever's on my mind even if it comes off scummy" playstyle and a "I'm determined to be a helpful townie and regain my credibility" playstyle, kind of depending on my mood and stress level. I think this has added to everyone's confusion considerably.
That was much longer than I meant it to be. But I hope it answers your question, CF.