So I think two days ago I entered the first jhana, though probably not for long. (Btw, the jhanas are 8 specific states you can reach via meditation.)
But yesterday, I definitely entered the first jhana. And I stayed there a while.
And it was... it's a little tough to describe how it was. But it was intense as fuck. And it arrived very suddenly. I was just there minding my own business of focusing on my hands, when suddenly WOOSH YOUR ENTIRE BODY IS NOW GOING TO BE HIT WITH INTENSE PLEASURE YOU'RE WELCOME
One the one hand, maybe the greatest experience I've ever had. On the other hand, it was... idk, like the bliss is so physical. Which is what it's supposed to feel like; the more spiritual bliss awaits in later jhanas. But after maybe 15 minutes of it, it almost felt like too much even while it was happening.
Wouldn't surprise me too much if taking heroin was like that. It's probably not since I haven't heard the jhanas compared to that, but like it's the kind of thing that I imagine hard drugs will do for you. And that kind of seems a bit wrong. Like a good buddhist isn't supposed to do the equivalent of a heroin trip... right?
And my legs still feel wobbly one day later as if I went out jogging for an hour.
It feels like it'd be too hardcore to attempt to replicate the same today..