Maybe you are under a lot of stress. Perhaps, it's work-related or that you're recently married
Look, I understand you don't mean this in an offensive way, but I'd really rather the rest of my life stay separated from this. The rest of my life is going just fine and I'm seeing this very clearly, I've had several weeks to read and re-read these PMs, I've talked to IRL friends who I trust more than anyone I've met on the internet. I would really appreciate it if my personal life didn't enter this discussion, it's none of anyone's business by my own and the people I choose to share it with.
Yes, my feelings are hurt. That tends to happen when people insult you personally. If it was just my feelings that were hurt, I don't think I'd be making such a stink about this. I've spent over a year working to make Dominion broadcasts like these better, I've come a long way and the only outlet I have for improvement is the League champion matches (nobody seems to want to have any other competitive Dominion out there because we have the League, which is fine). That work is being discarded and I have no other outlet for this -- I feel like there's something at stake here for me besides my own personal feelings.
But I don't want to make this personal -- my personal life is my own and not any of yours. Please keep it out of this. I thought I had actually brought this up publicly before, but it turns out I think that discussion happened in the League Staff sub-board and I no longer have access to it. In any case, now you all know, please don't make assumptions about my personal life; I take it... personally (ba dum tss).
A lot of people have said that my words have no teeth without seeing the PMs. I agree, I'd think the same thing in your shoes. I've seen some ideas suggested here, most of them seem perfectly reasonable but I can't do all of them, you know? I'd like to know what people actually want to see before doing something un-undoable. If only people could put +1s on the posts whose ideas they liked... I'll reiterate -- I'm willing to share anything, I have nothing to hide, but I don't want to go posting something that I shouldn't have, and it's just not clear to me what I should post yet. Until that happens, it would be unreasonable of me to expect anyone to take my word over anyone else's.
As for creating a division on the board, or trying to take over the League for myself -- that's definitely not what I want. I never said I wanted that. Please read my posts carefully and you'll see exactly what I'm saying and what I want. Organizing the League was something I felt I had to put up with in order to do what I was good at, which was organizing the Champion matches -- at the end of season 11, Stef and I had a discussion and we both agreed that it made more sense for me to not be a full League moderator but still put together the champion matches.
My point is that organizing an online league or tournament isn't exactly at the top of my list -- I've been putting all of my efforts into my IRL scene (mostly because of Adventures) and there are plenty of people online who would rather help out with this. I don't want all of the power or the responsibility; I could probably handle it but I'd really rather not. I feel the League moderators have acted with a lack of integrity here severe enough that it would be dishonest of me not to tell the community, and I think the solution is that they don't moderate the League anymore. It is because they wouldn't want to step down that the League would be dissolved and something put in its place, but I'd really like for that to not be my problem, which is why I said the community should come up with it. I feel like I already typed all of this in my OP, though. Is something not clear?
Adam, there is a serious problem here. You're not actually asking any questions, and yet you get mad for not receiving answers.
Please make a simple post where you repeat your questions. You could quote yourself, or just write them down again.
I asked these questions multiple times over the course of several PMs to you and other League moderators with no answer. I stated in the OP of this post that I had asked those questions and didn't hear a response. Is the serious problem here that I didn't use a question mark in my OP? There! I just used one!
But fine, here's the list. I'll use question marks, even. If you don't want to answer the questions publicly, you can PM me the answers or something.
1. What and with whom are the conflicts that are causing people to not want to cooperate with me for broadcasting the champion match?
2. What justification do you have for allowing certain players (the answer to question 1, for example) in the League to dictate how the League is run over others (like me)?
To be fair, this question was partially answered as I mentioned in my OP -- they had said I no longer represent the community as someone they want to watch. That answer is not true, so I'm hoping for a justification that is actually correct in this case.
Some have said that the mods shouldn't have to answer question 2, I disagree. When I ask this question and receive personal insults in a response, I'd say that among the possible reasons they could have for this would be "we don't like you." OK, sometimes people don't like me, that's fine, but that shouldn't enter the decisions they make as a League moderator. If my opponent and I play a match and agree that the outcome is 3-3, and then a moderator comes in and says "replay two of the games that you won" then I'd want some justification for that, and "I don't like you" wouldn't cut it for me. The mods are acting in their capacity as mods for the purpose of kicking me out of champion match commentary, I fail to see the difference between this and other situations where they act in their capacity as mods.
Also, I really don't like you questioning my integrity, and consider the whole thing rather ironical.
Two championship matches ago, when you were still the one organizing it, you got into a personal fight with SCSN.
You decided to ban him on your twitch account, even though he was a player in the A-group and wanted to see it.
I was playing at the moment and unaware of anything going on, but I do understand you stripped MicQ from his moderator status for trying to solve this problem.
Bringing your personal beefs into something where you happen to have some form of power - that actually is the opposite of integrity.
The championship match after that we set up a new account to prevent all this from happening again. As I tried to explain to you, this was a personal service to you, even though you didn't recognize it as such. The only other option was making you choose between unbanning SCSN on your own channel and choosing a new commentator, which would basically have been the same as dumping you. The talks around setting up this stream were extremely stiff. Eventually you waited confirming that you were willing to commentate again (prima donna) until 30 min before the match started. I had to have a back up team available just because of that. That's the signs of a really bad team-player, very hard to work with.
I banned SCSN from my Twitch channel a long time ago because he was posting personal insults in my chat. This does not stop him from viewing anything, it just makes it so he can't post in my chat. MQ unbanned him once without asking me, and I re-banned him; since MQ didn't ask me or even tell me about it, I took away his mod powers in my channel. It's my Twitch channel, I'll ban or mod whoever I want; I stand behind all of these decisions. SCSN is the one who posted insults in my chat, that is why I banned him; I don't think anyone around here would question my integrity as a result of that decision (if you do, I can back this up, it seems pretty clear to me though).
When this was brought to your attention, you said you didn't like it and asked me to unban SCSN. I said I wasn't willing to do this on my channel. You then suggested we create another channel and we both agreed that was a good idea -- we weren't having trouble getting viewers anymore which is the main reason it was on my channel in the first place. There was some discussion about the semantics of a rule you wanted to implement on this channel that we had some disagreement on, but I didn't care enough to continue it -- this solution made everyone happy.
I'm questioning your integrity for reasons entirely unrelated to this. If you don't like it, then I'd suggest acting with integrity.
You had not told me of the date or time of that champion match until like a day or two before it was happening -- I was not included in the discussion for when that match would take place which had happened previously (these things aren't scheduled around me, but it's much easier for me to plan my life around these things if I know when they're going to be). My wife and I had plans for that weekend that we had to completely rearrange to accommodate this, and I was trying to coordinate with Deadlock to make sure I had someone to commentate with. This same situation happened with the F.DS Championship final match as well, I was not given advance notice and had to tear apart my whole weekend to make it happen for you. Am I questioning your integrity or attacking your character because of this? No. This season I was going to make sure I sent a PM reminding the contenders of the champion match to let me know once they had decided on a date/time.
I don't appreciate you blaming this on me and attacking my character (prima donna). At least this time you're doing it publicly so people can see it.
Apparently you question my decision to move your post, and label it as abuse of power. Do you realize that by moving this thread, I stripped myself of all moderator rights to edit any of its posts? And that people who now hit the 'report' button now actually report to theory, instead of reporting to me?
Theory sees all of the reports regardless, I think. This thread belongs in the Dominion League board, not here. You couldn't edit posts there without it showing up that the post had been edited. Yes, you moving the topic here is a clear abuse of power, don't try and pretend that it isn't.